an introduction

You want the truth, of course. You want me to put two and two together. But two and two doesn’t necessarily get you the truth. Two and two equals a voice outside the window. Two and two equals the wind. The living bird is not its labeled bones. – Margaret Atwood

I opened my research proposal with the above quote. I’m quite sure Ms. Atwood wasn’t thinking about the whole yawning qualitative versus quantitative methods debate in social science when she wrote it – and by quite sure I mean not sure at all except why on earth would she? – but it captures my feelings on the reasons I have chosen narrative inquiry to conduct my research rather than anything else. There is a point and a use to labeling bones (muscle, tendon, nerve) that no amount of staring at a living bird is going to accomplish. I get that. I agree with it. I even bought the t-shirt. Nevertheless, it’s that voice, that wind, that bird that I want to capture, even if I know before I start that I will never, not wholly, accomplish such a thing. It’s still worth the effort to try.

Today was meet the supervisors day. I have two, and I’m not quite sure how that happened, it just did. Lucky to have either one, let alone both. I was more nervous than I had a right to be before our meeting and spilled the tea I was drinking all over the carpet as I dashed out the door of my house, desperate not to be late. I yelled at one of my teens to please clean it up for me, promised her extra brownie points in heaven for being kind to her mother. She took the deal. I parked too far away, hit the wrong lights when I needed to cross the road, arrived late. V. offered me tea; this I didn’t spill. Did manage to forget I was a grown-up and served them ill-thought out answers to almost every question, because AWESOME. I’ve never done this before. I don’t know what I think about anything. Get me to write it down and I’ll probably think better. After eight edits. Maybe. Neither supervisor kicked me out the office and told me to come back when I’d grown a brain, so we’ll call it a success. I even have two jobs to do. I don’t really like jobs.

So here we are.  Hello. It’s a pleasure to be here, and welcome to my bloggy research blog.